Paralyzed.

I feel paralyzed. I can't explain what's going on in my mind, but I'm trying.
I feel so fat.
I feel like I am excited about nothing. I was on a high but now I don't know what I am.
I can't breathe when I start thinking. Then again sometimes I can't breathe even when I am just sitting.
I want to go to sleep for a long long time. At least 'til I can feel happy and excited...and motivated. I do not want to do anything. But then doing nothing makes me go crazy, too. I dont' want to move, but this scares me and I cannot breathe. I don't want to move, but then I am doing nothing and it makes me crazy. Either way, I feel nuts. People havhe to be sick of me- moping and sending text messages, and emails, and blogs. They are probably thinking 'I wish she would just get over herself and stop acting this way.'
I am not motivated for school at all. I've even thought about quitting. But then again, I don't want to work, either. What kind of life am I living, besides selfish, uninspiring, and lifeless??
FML!!!
I feel done with therapy- Now that Jenna knows me, I don't know what to talk about. Besides the fact that I feel dead and want to just go to sleep.
I don't even care right now if I fail my test tomorrow. What does it matter? Kluck doesn't give 2 shits about me anyways, and though I may be a perfectionist, I don't give 2 shits about her class, either.
Time crawls by...Hurry up, PLEASE!!