Hello, hello, long time no talk...
Ok, it hasn't been that long, but after writing a few days in a row, it seems like a long time when you wait a few days.
Anywho.
Today marks Day 5 of my no-nap goal. I know, it sounds silly, but I had to start somewhere. I had gotten into the habit of sleeping during the day almost everyday, despite already not having to get up at a certain time most mornings. So I started Sunday, and I've managed to keep myself fairly busy- or at least busy enough- to stay awake from at least 11 to 11. I do feel a lot better. Not sleeping during the day means I at least feel more productive, and I, for the most part, sleep better at night. It seems that I have been tired pretty much all the time ever since I had mono in the Spring, and I just couldn't kick the feeling. I've had so many tests and diagnoses, and it just gets old. At a certain point, you just feel like never complaining or going to the doctor at all because it seems like you've used up all the complaining points for the rest of your life.
Today I feel almost manic, I feel the need to be so productive. I am constantly making lists and I cannot stop. Is this a compulsion? I don't know. Does it make me feel in control? Not exactly. It is what it is--it's my way of having a visual list, a)so I do not forget what I need to do, and b)so i can try to stop thinking about it in my head. Anywho, rush rush rush, here I am.
I just returned from a little photography time, which is definately a must-have in my life, particularly in the Fall. I try to take time at least once every Fall to take a road trip somewhere or to just stop and look around me and see things. See things through a different lens. It dawned on me today, as it does often, that some things will never be again-- the sky's color or cloud formation, for example. The sky will likely not look as it did today any other day ever. God is amazing in that He does that. He gives us so many different perspectives to see his creations from, and creates such unique situations. Sometimes I find myself wishing I had a camera with me, just because I know I will never ever be able to capture that one particular view that I have at that very moment. But I have to remind myself that God creates so many of those moments, and it is a reminder to take advantage of as many moments as possible.
Well, not to get too sentimental here, but I will post a few of my favorite Fall pictures that I have taken in previous years, at least until I get today's developed.
On to try to write my paper on teaching children with emotional and behavior disorders...
~me
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