M is talking to me; 'Be Strong and Courageous'

Aside from a few blisters on my feet, I had a pretty good day today.
I immediately woke up ready to be productive. I felt quick in the shower, ready to go. Lunch with Amber, then worked on my closet for a while. Had a lot to do for school, and did a presentation with Sophie for Psi Chi...

M has been talking to me more and this makes me happy. For the longest time, I felt like she has been avoiding me and I have been soo jealous of her friendship with K, especially since we all met at the same time. But anyways, I feel like M is sharing more of her life with me- maybe she feels more comfortable with me. Maybe since I've been talking to D, she feels more comfortable with me. I dunno. But I really pray that things only get better. And plus Dr. Davis pointed out that I need to look at things from other's perspectives and not just my own. Things aren't really always what they seem to be to me.

Anyways, I have decided to stop being apathetic about at least one thing-- God, at least for as long as I can. I have been in a small group for a couple of months almost now, and I have not read or completed any of the studies. Yesterday A emailed us and wants us to dig deep into this week's study, so I really want to, and maybe it will help us to be more open with one another as a semi-large group. I really want to get past the drama of everyday life and boyfriends and so forth and so on...I really want more than that in a new friendship and in this church small group. It has been soo long - if ever - that I have truly been comfortable in a small group study.

So tonight, I started with Chapter 1. God reminded me something- He said
"Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be terrified; do not be discouraged, for the Lord your God will be with you wherever you go."
~Joshua 1:9

Thanks for reminding me...no matter how alone I feel and how discouraged and defeated I feel, YOU are with me. And thanks for giving me that little nudge--I really need that right now, in a time when I feel weak and skeptical about so much in life.

So here's to 24 hours of goodness.